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Oh. It is such a dangerous business to work on this entry because the speed of the internet has just about as erratic as a hormonal orangutan. But yeah ... I am doing this anyway.

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Title : Urgh ... I hate this.

I took the public transport home again yesterday. Yes, I mean KTM. And it was not the first time I was actually hitching a ride during peak hour. Oh, the horror! The queue seemed endless, and it was almost impossible to flood into a train that was already flooded with people.


The worst part for me as a girl was to be so physically close to strangers in the train. I tried to take things lightly, talking to my friend and pretending to be so cool, but I just could not take it after a while. I actually felt like crying.


I hate the fact that my back is pressed against a stranger's body, my face merely inches from another man's face. I don't think any girl should ever be that close to people they don't know, even in a public transport.


The government should really step up with the public transport. They keep on saying that we have first class facility. Ouh, really? With third class mentality, perhaps?


I beg to differ.


It is not enough to have first class facility in place. We need first class system and first class execution as well. When people could not rely on the system, they switch to depend on their survival skills. And all the pushing begins. 


There is a reason why projects go in phases. It is to identify loopholes and improve prior to larger implementation. Extending the railway to Subang Jaya and making LRT more accessible without addressing the density problem first is like calling a mayday.


The 15-30 minutes interval between two trains is ridiculous. Trains need to be more frequent during peak hours because every time a train arrives, only ten people per line could smash their body into the pool of mankind. Hundreds more are lining up, and the queue just gets longer.


Maybe the Prime Minister should make it compulsory for ministers to take the LRT ride home once a month. Or at least ask their wives to take public transport every now and then. And then we'll see who's pushing who.




p/s : I do sound like an outspoken citizen. Don't I?

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A few months ago, dad (alone) rode one commuter on his way back home from Kuala Lumpur. He was all pissed off with the service.

At home.

My dad :

Is the train always moving in that speed? It is too slow. The reason people take commuter is to avoid the heavy traffic. And with that speed? It helps nothing.

Me ^^ :

Yeah. Now you know.

My dad :

My train was delayed for 30 minutes, you know?

Me ^^ :

It delays most of the time, dad. Never been punctual. Lucky you have to wait just for 30 minutes. We usually have to wait longer. 

My dad :

I stood. And no one offered me a seat. Not even from this young healthy man.

Sister :

Of course, dad. You don't look disabled.

He complained a lot more, actually, but I could not remember all the details. I did not even know why did he ride on a commuter. Maybe he wanted to have an experience, so that, he knows how his daughter feels upon riding that thing. Woah, I like your spirit, dad!


Well, I think dad is almost clueless. Haha. Don't tell him!

confession

tagged by : andak


"Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, or goals about you. In the end, choose 5 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. (Oh, this is weird. I mean to tag the person who tagged you? Never mind.) If I tag you, it is because I want to know you more."


Oh, wait. Do you really want to know about me, andak? And ... do you want me to be honest? Okay, I am trying.


Important info.
1). 
I am pro truth.
2). 
I am pro justice.
3). 
I am pro humanity.
4). 
I am pro human rights.
5). 
because American government goes against them, I am anti American government.


Mom said that ...
1). 
... aisyah is petty. (Am I? No. I know I am not.)
2). 
... aisyah is too dependent. (Dependent, may be. But too dependent ... let me check ... )
3). 
... aisyah is coward. (Of course. Who aren't? Don't lie, okay.)
4). 
... aisyah is not easy going. (Haih -.-'. Hmm ... well ... )
5). 
... aisyah is not good in stress management. (Yeah, I think so.)


Bad habits.
1). 
Always laugh very loud -- literally. (Good aisyah. At least you know this is a bad habit.)
2). 
Always shout. (Is that bad? Yes, if you are a girl ... kot. Double standard. Cis.)
3). 
Always nag and make a fuss. (Do you have to do this? Go study. Now! I said, NOW!)
4). 
Lazy to make a move. (I have been struggling on this for years. And I never succeed.)
5). 
Regular sleeping pattern at home : 10pm-6am and 2pm-5pm. (Woah, that makes 11 hours a day! Okay, this is totally bad. I know.)


So-called dreams.
1).
Serve compulsory service to the government for a few years. Earn $$$$$$ (grow the money at the same time). Then quit and join the NGO. Or just work at home. Haha.
2).
Plan to live in Berlin. Last few days, my sister asked, "Where did you say you want to live after studying?". I said, "Malaysia. I am fine here. Malaysia is my home." Woah, I was even surprised by myself. But, this is really not the case.
3).
Drive SUV -- Toyota Fortuner / Volkswagen Touareg / Lexus RX350 / any of these sort. I gave up Mitsubishi Lancer because ... you know.
4).
Live in semi-detached house, with my sister as the neighbour. Since mom does not want to live with us (she said, she is okay living in grandma's house), we will always balik kampung to meet mom and dad together.
5).
Childish ever dream : Would like to take Defence Against the Dark Arts, Transfiguration, and Potion subjects in Hogwarts. Who want to join me?


Randomness.
1). 
Yeah, I am quite a random person. Don't you think? But still people can read me like an open book. (Macam mana tu?)
2). 
Hate remembering birthdays and dates. My long term memory is not superb. Which is the reason why I always do last minute revision. (Eleh. Alasan je!)
3).
Dislike Physics. The word physics itself irritates me. Dislike History. Dislike Geography. Dislike Kemahiran Hidup. Now I wonder how did I survive in junior high school.
4).
Like exam weeks, somehow. Despite all the pressures exerted on me, I could feel that exam weeks is the only period I can totally devote myself to the text books and lecture notes. Typical.
5).
Like handwriting better than computer-typed. No matter how ugly the handwriting is. Because handwritten brings you sentimental values.


NEXT!

1. Maryam.
2. Athira.
3. Syahirah.
4. Jalilah.
5. Afifah. (Eh, lupa pulak Afifah takde blog. Hehe.)
6. Andak. (According to the instruction, I have to tag you back, right? *confused*)

p/s 1 : 

Just do this if you have time and you want to. I will not hold any revenge for those who refuse to.

p/s 2 :

People, you don't have to tag me back. I don't mind. (^.^)

well ...

... I think we have some catching ups to do. I found it very ironic that now I have finished almost all the papers for final exam. I am free for two days before the last paper. And all I did today were lazying around and reading non-academical books, like there is no tomorrow to do all those things. Bad me. All right, let's go straight to our business.

Random #1:

Dear Maryam. Oops sorry. Dear Prongs, this is for you.

Dear, I wrote this during the exam weeks. I did not post this straightaway to your place because I could not trust the postman anymore. Take my commandments seriously. This is an order! Print and paste it on the wall if you have to.

Oh, by the way. Happy supra threshold (= super) belated birthday. Be a good girl. Do not flirt much, or you will be a dead meat pretty soon. Haha. I heart you with all my heart and its content.

p/s 1 : 

Pardon the ugly paper. Biasa lah kan, doodle dekat lebihan kertas buat notes. (bahasa Melayu apakah? haha)

Random #2:

I used to be quite adamant about not leaving creases on the spine of my book. I am quite particular about it. Really. But as I was reading this particular text book a night before exam, I made a slight yet apparent crease on its spine and on the cover. It did not seem like an invasion, though. In fact, it looked like a progression.

Here I go, over analyzing a fold. A mere alteration in the originality of a form. I used to get really bothered and annoyed by these kind of things. The first time I dropped the phone. The first scratch on the laptop. But these lines, wrinkles, and scratches, are what personify your object. They make them yours.

Random #3:

Lately, I am so much aware with anatomical and physiological changes in my body. Like, when I felt pain in my throat, I could also feel that the thyroid gland was swollen (scary~). Or when I was studying, I could feel that the blood vessels going to the brain were rapidly constricting and dilating.

What does that mean? It means, I am too indulged in studying anatomy and physiology. Haha. (Oh wait, did you just double check to see if you were on aisyah's blog? Sheesh ...) Okay. Okay. I am not that indulged, but I was not kidding. In fact, when I was writing this, my tummy was making all these gurgling digestive sounds.

Random #4:

I am pleased to report that, despite all the pressures during the examination weeks, I am still in my pink of health. Give thanks to Allah *insert Zain Bikha soundtrack*. And also, thanks to copious amount of daily vitamins and mental health programme. Let me tell you about my mental health programme in the next paragraph.

My self-prescribed mental health plan involves a lot of talking to myself out loud. Thing I never did before because I prefer people not to think of me as a nutcase. Lately, however, I found that verbalizing my thoughts and emotions has an extremely therapeutic and calming effect on me. (Okay, you probably think I am a nutcase now.)

Random #5 :

Oh. I got a text message from my aunt just now. It says :

Salam. Hope you are in great health and doing fine in studies. Your mom told me that you are going home on the 13th of November, which is this Saturday, by bus. Young lady, please take good care of yourself. Make sure your mobile phone is well functioning with enough credit and with the battery fully charged. Functioning mobile phone is important for your parents to communicate with you. Please keep alert all the time. Bring only important stuffs. Do not bring too much things with you which can limit your movement. We all pray for your safety. Remember, Allah is always with us. InsyaAllah everything is going to be fine. Salam sayang.

This is charming! But, I got a text message from someone annoying too. Really spoil the mood. Huh.

Random #6 :

I have a very polite and descent friend. I mean, for an average (i.e. not-so-polite) girl like me, if I want to say I have a lot more to revise, I would say, "Banyak gila tak baca lagi." And my friend's version would be, "Ada 19 chapters tau psychology. Banyak jiddan." Notice the choice of words there?

Is it because the word is in Arabic so I said it sounds more polite? No. Not really. I am just actually picturing myself in 10 years time. It is not nice to hear that kind of impolite words coming from an adult-me, right? So, I have to inculcate politeness and courtesy in myself starting from now -- new resolution for today.

Random #7 :

I could not agree more with Amal. (visit her. she is a nice girl ^.^). Examination is all about memorizing detail information. Studying hard will not give much benefits if you cannot memorize all the understood facts. Okay, may be it will. But still, not as much as when you memorize them. Of course la, kan?

But, what if you just have three minutes to answer a question (with sub questions, too). And all you can do is to vomit whatever you have on the surface of your brain. You do not even have enough time to squeeze your brain and obtain the information stored deep inside it. PHM 1153 quiz was a nightmare.

Random #8 :

I am biased towards all the things I deal with. Even with the lecture notes. The arrangement of my lecture notes would always be, the most enjoyable subject on the top and the least enjoyable subject at the bottom. I handled notes for the subject I like very carefully like I was handling a fragile baby. And I did not do that to the rest.

I am also biased towards people. I have tried not to be so obvious. But ... *sigh*. I think my friends get to notice about this too. Duhh. I fail as a human being. Hence, job which demands me to deal with the community is not a good choice. Because I am prone to bias-ism (new vocab). Life is so complicated at this point. Haih =.="

Random #9 :

Oh. Well. I think people who do not respond to text messages are annoying. What were you doing? Revising? So you switched off your phone? Did you think what you were doing was ethical? Especially when you have to deal with something in a great concern of someone else?

Why do some people take 24 hours to just respond to a text message? Because they are too busy? Okay, responding to a text message takes like what? Less than 5 minutes, right? Or because they are sleeping? Nonsense. People do not sleep for 24 hours straight. Or simply because I am not that important, so you do not care?

Okay. FINE. WHATEVER. Just do what you want. And proceed doing your work like you are going to live forever because of that work. Do not be bothered by anything else. But. Hey, you. Watch out. Do you want me to be bias on you? In a bad way, I mean. Oh, you do not care? Okay. Get it.

Busy sangat. Konon. AHH SUDAH LAA. (Haa, kan dah emo. Isy.)

Random #10 :

Oh. Final exam. I screwed 4 papers for core subjects *down -_-*. And the 40% assessments could not help much *down lagi -_-*.

Great, aisyah. Serve you right!

And I planned not to check the result. Oh sheesh ... I have to submit the result transcript to my *boyfriend lah! Isy. Sibuk je nak tengok jugak.

* boyfriend is referred to the sponsorship personnel.

Okay, this is boring. I know. Bye. Good night.