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"To be great, you have to believe in something greater." The only line I could quote from the speaker that evening (may be he quoted from somewhere else too, I don't know, I was not paying attention). It was a compulsory course we had to attend during a weekend few weeks before mid break. Why did I feel like it was such a deep saying from all of other lines in that 4 hours lecture?


Because, later during that day, as I was reciting the Quran, I came across verses that were narrating the story of Prophet Ibrahim in his journey to know his GOD -- when he was trying to worship something that he felt greater than him. 


It was from surah al An'am, verse 76-79. It went like this:


So when the night covered him with darkness, he saw a star. He said, "This is my Lord." But when it set, he said, "I like not those that disappear."


And when he saw the moon rising, he said, "This is my Lord." But when it set, he said, "Unless my Lord guides me, I will surely be among those people gone astray."


And when he saw the sun rising, he said, "This is my Lord. This is greater." But when it set, he said, "O my people, indeed I am free from what you associated with ALLAH SWT,


Indeed, I have turned my face toward HE -- who created the heaven and the earth, inclining toward truth, and I am not of those who associate others with ALLAH."


To be great, you have to believe in something greater. And great, itself, is subjective. Greatness, like once said by Shakespeare in Julius Caesar, is when a man is worshiped like a God by other people, and yet he does not aware of it nor does he care about it. And so in another poem called If.


Often we heard the stories of the downfall of great men and empires. And usually they came up with one reason. Because they thought that they were superior than any other and they forgot who they really were. Thus, there is always a need for men to believe in something greater.


It is like a negative quadratic graph, once you believe that you are at the peak, eventually you will fall. To be great, is always to believe that you are not at the peak. To be great is to believe that there is always something GREATER than you.


And when we do believe in something greater, perhaps we also need to question; is that something we believe in great enough to be worshiped?


And like Prophet Ibrahim, I believe something great should not be similar to anything we could imagine nor could we see. Should not be something we could doubt. Should not be something that has beginning nor ending. Which is the ONLY ONE.


InsyaALLAH, if we truly believe in it and have faith in it, we could be aspired to be like so many great Muslims back then, especially during the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) day. 


Oh ALLAH, give us strength. Every soul that is searching for the truth, is actually searching for YOU. Whether or not we realize it.

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Macam tak sampai je point. Takpe la, tak nak fikir dah.

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Ngelat tarikh post lagi? Wellwhattodo~

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Kenape shoutbox tu makin banyak spam? Macam geli je.

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Okay, tak perlu kot semua post scripts ni. Okaythanksbye.

draft #6

Title : Reminder.

Those words were repeated 31 times in surah Ar Rahman.

Ar Rahman is one of my favourite surahs in the Quran since I was in school. There, ALLAH SWT speaks of things HE created for us -- the world for us to live in, fruits for our hunger, plants of pleasant smell, us made by clay, jinns by fire free of smoke, the two seas that meet (between them a barrier which cannot be passed; and out of them come pearls and coral stones) as proves of HIS full of Majesty, Bounty, and Honour. Yet, with all HIS blessings and signs of HIS Greatness, many of us forget. And we are left nothing, but lost.


I remembered attending a Grand Qiyamullail at this particular masjeed in town and the imaam recited this surah in one of the prayers. When he reached the repeating part, my eyes began to water. The meaning of the ayaah touched me deep inside. I tried to hold my breathe. But when the imaam himself began to cry, when he tried so hard to read the Holy words without choking, then I completely lost control.


Despite being a crying baby, I cried so badly until the end of the prayer. I could not help it. And I believed other jemaah also shared the same grief. It was really moving.


Reflecting on the ayaah, all I could think was ... ... ...

Why am I so stubborn?

Why am I so ungrateful?

Why haven't I appreciated ALLAH SWT after all HE has given to us?

Why haven't I returned to ALLAH SWT when HE is the Only One who can comfort my pain?

Why haven't I walked to HIM when HE promises that HE would run towards me?

Will ALLAH SWT ever forgive me? Will HE ever forgive me?

Ar Rahman is one of the most beautiful surahs in the Quran. If you have time, please go on Youtube and search for Ar Rahman recitation. There are plenty of them. I hope it will touched you, just as it has touched me.


Well people, we need to keep ourselves reminded because we, humans, are known for our weaknesses. And we sometimes are also known for our strength upon managing disgusting temptations. 


At one point, we are all sobered up. But then, at another point, we have forgotten about the actual purpose in life. However, once you are given the chance to be reminded again, do all that you can. Chances do not come that often.


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Post ini ditulis sebagai tanda kasih sayang daripada saya.

Published on: 

13th November 2011

Scheduled to be published on: 

25th October 2011

Eh? Blog sape la yang tak cukup kasih sayang ni. Buat malu je~

draft #5

HARI INI DALAM SEJARAH, 23hb September 2011.

How much this means to me.

Something happened today which makes me feel something I never felt before. On my way back, I had this question on mind: Will I ever be as important to you someday in the future the way I feel like I am today? I let my thoughts wandered blindly without any answer for a second. And the monotonic tone of finality gave a full stop to it. That does not matter, it says. Because she would always be an important person to me.


It used to be Scoffield and Burrows, Peyton Sawyer and Brooke Davis, House and Wilson, Holmes and Walson. Now, am trying to move towards being Abdul Rahman bin Auf and Saad bin Raabi', or Imam Maliki and Imam Syafie. And maybe one day -- if not as strong, as near as possible to the bond of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) and his companion, Abu Bakar As Siddiq.


Friends forever means more than just a term. When you say forever, you really have to mean forever. It takes more than just another person you share your thoughts and secrets with, more than hours you spend together through thick and thin. When you say friends forever, it means being friends here in this life, and still are friends on the day ALLAH SWT judges our doings.


When you say friends forever, have you ever truly believed in it? When you say it, you actually have to really mean it, and believe in it. It is something you have to give some efforts on. Something you have to work for. Work for that bonds of love which is on the basis of ALLAH SWT, the Eternal One. Anyone who is bonded to you with that strong basis will be you friends. Forever. Here and Hereafter. InsyaALLAH.


And the girls, all main characters on scene (if you know what I mean), they are my best friends. Now and forever.




"Sesungguhnya di sekitar Arasy ALLAH SWT ada mimbar mimbar daripada cahaya. Di atasnya ada golongan yang berpakaian cahaya, wajah wajah mereka bercahaya. Mereka bukan para nabi mahupun syuhada'. Malahan para nabi dan syuhada' cemburu kepada kedudukan mereka di sisi ALLAH SWT." Sahabat bertanya, "Siapa mereka wahai Rasulullah?" Baginda menjawab, "Mereka adalah orang orang yang saling mencintai kerana ALLAH SWT, bersaudara kerana ALLAH SWT, dan saling mengunjungi kerana ALLAH SWT."

I want to be one of them. Jom nak?

Jom kita berkasih sayang kerana ALLAH SWT! (: (: (:

special edition

I am back on track now, insyaALLAH.


To be honest, there were quite a number of times when the thoughts of deleting this blog came to mind. Especially those days when I was in dilemma of letting my insights go public. And, of course, when I realized that things I wrote here were not the things I actually do. You know, all those tazkirah-related posts, though they were not that many.


Why was I always in that dilemma?


1).
I am afraid of causing confusion and misunderstandings about Islam for, truthfully and honestly, I am not as equipped with enough knowledge. I wrote based on what I read, what I heard, and what I think. Mostly what I think.


2).
Most of the time, I wrote about personal stuff -- an expression of current immaturity when I followed emotions a little bit too much. In most cases, I actually overreacted. That is probably a well-known fact to you if you know me in real life too.


When I first started this blog, I just wrote everything I had on mind. They ranged from personal issues to national issues, from sharing extreme opinions to spilling emotions, from open Ramadhan greetings to personal birthday greetings. No space was left to doubt about anything because, back then, the readers were among family members and a few real close friends.


But now, the audience come from various backgrounds. The traffics come from strange sources -- some of them linked me on their sites. I even have some I-cannot-figure-out-where-they-are-coming-from-and-how-on-earth-could-they-find-my-blog people as followers -- which keeps me wondering why because I cannot tell what are the things they are expecting from my next entry.


Don't tell me they are following just because they want me to follow them back! If that is the case, I am so sorry then. I think the notion 'I follow you, you follow me back' is ridiculous. And that is another separated issue to talk about. Do spend me an hour of lecture for that topic.


I know a few not-so-close classmates (and college-mates) who keep on checking updates here. I know a few people who have this blog bookmarked. I know a few silent readers who left this blog untraced by me, neither by the stats. And I know a few stalkers who give their undivided attentions to me. <-- Malu tak bagi statement macam ni? Malu kan? =.="


Okay. Paragraph di atas adalah paragraph orang perasan dan ayat yang last sekali adalah highlight kepada semua ayat ayat perasan dalam paragraph tersebut. Sekian. Harap maklum.


So. Due to the consciousness (more to perasan-ness to be exact) of having large demographic scale of readers, I found it necessary to have all the entries filtered. Only those which I deem suitable for all types of audience will be published. Sadly however, upon analyzing all the contents posted, I came to realize that most of them were (and still are) good for nothing.


EMBARRASSING! Is it not? 


Yeah. I actually have thought of privatizing it too. But what is the purpose of writing on blog when it goes private, isn't it? Hehe.


So people! Since this is my 100th entry (after 2 years, what a shame!). And it is not something worth mentioning about, I know. Coming to this point, however, I think it is already time for me to do some serious reflections before a lot more posts or entries coming afterwards.


Evaluation parameters:

1). Are you able to provide this post with clearly defined aims and objectives?

[Yes] Good. Please proceed to the next question.

[No] Stop here and delete the draft.

2). Is there any personal interest of yours which leads you to proceed with the topic?

[Yes] Clarify to yourself. Do not proceed until you are done with your inner conflict.

[No] Also clarify to yourself about your intention.

3). Do you think this post will benefit the people who read it?

[Yes] To what extend?

[No] Do not proceed because this is just as meaningless.

4). Most importantly, do you think ALLAH SWT will be pleased with what you do and do you think it is qualified to be counted as a good 'amal?

Do reflect from within. Answer and judge yourself. Make your own wise decision. 

Why do I have to jot all these things down? So that every time I want to write something, this post will remind me of what I wish to change and will, hopefully, always keep me right on track.




"Jom kita berlari mendapatkan ALLAH. Kalau tak dapat lari, takpe ... jom kita sama sama merangkak, kemudian berjalan, dan seterusnya berlari ke arah itu." -Quote daripada sape ntah, tak ingat dah-




Oh, about writing things which I do not practice ... I will be more careful from now on. InsyaALLAH.